Future!

 Watching my childhood disappear is one of the most hurtful things! 

I wanna relive it horribly bad, but then again I don’t! 

I long for it  I understand that the memories are present,  but sometimes that isn’t enough!

I realize that you kinda need the adults you loved more so as you become an adult yourself!

Questions that you have that can only go unanswered now! 

It’s so bitter sweet to lose loved ones, am I selfish for missing them because they are connected to my own childhood nostalgia that I crave?  

I think,  maybe things wouldn’t even be what I’m thinking they would be! Maybe I’m creating this whole story of what if’s and making up some perfect happy ending! IDK

But I miss my childhood and everything in my past has died in my future!